Sea the Change: A Reflection
Good times seem to pass very quickly. It almost seems as if it was a moment or two and it’s over. I have been imagining this since the start of my fellowship and the thought brought me here, at the beach. I am always up for adventure and to end things on a high, I came all the way across the city to capture something that could actually interpret my story. Amal was like any other course that you join to see whether you fit in or not, let’s see what happens, and so on. I did that too and surprisingly, I just couldn’t drop it even when I faced serious time management issues.
You enter a commitment and expect things to change as if they were a fairytale but things like these do not happen in the real world. There is a transition that can not be felt until a significant amount of time has passed. You learn you adopt, you survive, you strive, you reap and you have dived too deep. We expect to find a dead-end, a bottom full of darkness, or some chained monsters. I found a never-ending light, it was mild and easy on the eyes. I found an enchanted ocean floor, heaps of silver and gold. How can I ask for more?
I remember joining the first session and seeing all these new faces. I tried but no one was recognizable. I could see that each person was trying to sound as intellectual as possible since this was a fellowship that focused on rather personal development. I was amused by the answers and impressed by the different kinds of views different people gave. I guess each person has different experiences and views on life. Hence, like a current. Each wave was a different person, with different energy and impact on the topic Yet all hit the same target, the shore.
I remember we had to make a video in the very first project work. I drove to the nearest petrol pump just because I was unable to find a peaceful place at home and also because I was very shy. We also developed our smart goals and had an absolute emotional session. We discussed our future goals and found similarities that portrayed that we were a part of the same cycle, the same sea, just different waves.
In those two weeks, courses and assignments came crashing in. I had no idea how to complete them on time while maintaining the quality as well. It all seemed a piece of cake at the beginning, I would say to myself that it won’t be a problem managing my university, my projects, and my fellowship together.
I sat here peacefully, thinking that fellowship would be easy. I will make it, it will not be as difficult as they say. But little did I know that a wave would come crashing in and made me wet. I was able to capture it on time.
The pressure was on and loads of work were to be submitted on time as well as the content discussed in the session. Who does that? I mean where are we backbenchers supposed to go?
But all’s well that ends well. I am proud of surviving these three long months. I am happy that I did not quit. I feel that this was what I needed. My program managers, Sir Anis and Ma’am Aalia are gems. I pray for their success and I will never forget them, no matter where I go. I am glad that I made new friends. I came across such amazing people.
Abdul Rafay, my dear friend for the past four years, I love embarrassing him. My circle members Salman Abbbasi (bore the pressure together, you have motivated me to post gym videos as well, I’m on it XD), Sania (the efficient and ever ready to cooperate one, keep smiling), Rooma (way too smart for all of us), Khubaib(waiting for the day you will actually say I have submitted my work on time) and Faraz(love your simplicity brother, stay humble). It was a pleasure working with you and I hope we continue with what we have started.
Bilal bhai, I am really inspired by you. Your polite tone is what attracts me. Saad, it was amazing being your partner. I hope we become good friends. Marium, you are an amazing friend. Please do give credits and treat as per your promise. I still regret the harsh comments we gave you as an activity, in the session but it was kind of fun. I hope they develop a vaccine that suits you. Neha you are an amazing person. I wish you success. Zorain, you are the most positive person I have seen. Your energy is amazing and you really give good vibes. I don't have words to express what kind of a person you are. Stay the same. Rimsha is always tagging me on the wrong posts and I have to figure out why she really tagged me and answer accordingly. Your polite nature is just what sets you apart. Muzzamil, I really like how you share your ideas. Wish you luck. Rija, thank you for promoting our mega project it was really kind of you. Others, I couldn't get to know better but their thoughts were always a great source of learning for me like Mahvish, Kisa, Hayyan, Zobia, Anas, Fareeza, Mehdi Abbas, and so on.
I can not thanks Sir Anis enough for actually guiding me in the one-to-one session and throughout the course. I want to adopt your calm and polite nature but it seems impossible. You are just amazing. Ma’am Aalia, I was overwhelmed by your voice note in Project work 10. It was unexpected but I can't explain what I felt while listening to it. I have downloaded it and I will listen to it whenever I feel down. Keep smiling, both of you.
This is it. There is always more. Some things are better left unsaid. You all are welcome, in advance :P. I beg you all for a meet-up soon and I hope we continue to keep in touch. thankyou all for this amazing time. Love.
